my life right before your very eyes...

Do You Feel The Xmas Spirit?

2008-12-17T19:21:00.003+08:00

Xmas is just around the corner but do you feel the Xmas spirit? For some reason I dont! Sad but true. All the Xmas decors are up, I can feel the cold breeze all through out the day, listening to Xmas songs, Xmas gifts under the tree...yes all that is evident in my day to day life. But somehow I still cant feel the Xmas spirit. Maybe its because of the current situation of our economy --- hard times or maybe its because of the personal struggles people close to me are going through. I dont know! It makes me think --- is Xmas really just for Children? I dont want to believe that though. It shouldn't be right? Because Xmas is for everybody. The funny thing is, its not only me who doesn't feel it. I have friends who feel the same way and even hubby. :-(

I hope this feeling will change when Xmas comes....

Long Time No Post

2008-11-29T09:20:00.002+08:00

Its been over a month since my last post and a lot has happened.

My hubby and I arrived from our US trip last November 7. We had a blast --- most especially my hubby. It was his first time in the US so he was like a kid exploring new things and I am happy that we were able to explore this new adventure of his together. It was a long overdue honeymoon! We missed our dog (Chase) terribly! He is one of the main reasons why we felt homesick and wanted to go home already towards the end of our vacation. Hehe!

When I went back to work I was like floating --- hang over from that long vacation that I had (semi-work also). But after a week everything started to kick in. Now, I am so busy with all the projects that are assigned to me so this long weekend is something I was really looking forward to. Hehe..to think I just got back like two weeks ago. :-)

I've already started with my Xmas shopping just last weekend. Hopefully I can finish everything by next week. Have you guys started with your Xmas shopping? But you know what? Up to now I still cant feel the Xmas spirit. Does it come with age? Maybe! A friend of mine said maybe its because of all the gastos and Xmas is really for kids but I beg to disagree. Oh well...

Missed blogging...until my next blog! :-)

I am thankful!!!

2008-09-14T13:09:00.005+08:00

I am thankful because...

It was a long needed talk...until 5AM! There may be a lot going on right now --- but at the end of if all, it is still the both of us that will be helping each other. No matter what happens!

I am thankful because...

We were able to understand each other more, we were able to express ALL our thoughts and feelings without hesitation.

I am thankful because...

We have each other! :-) I thank God everyday for blessing me with someone like you!

Sad and Happy News

2008-09-13T12:42:00.003+08:00

I just finished having lunch and watched the news on Q-TV with my father in law. There were two news reports that struck my emotions.

The news report that made me sad --- A fetus was found in a box that was left by some lady who took the bus and got off along EDSA. The box was discovered by the bus driver and turned it over to the MMDA. I had a similar post about a fetus found somewhere months ago. This kind of news really makes me mad not sad! Here I am (and other women too) wanting to have a baby and some women opt to have theirs aborted. What is wrong with them? Dont they know how blessed they are? I can say so much about this issue but I just leave it up to God. For me abortion is really the WRONG way to go!!!

On the happier side, the news that made me smile, was a woman who gave birth to quadruplets. Aint that great? Though the babies are not in stable condition and the parents are worried on how they will raise their children given the financial status they are in. But despite that they are really happy with this blessing they received from God. :-) I am sure God will take care of them.

If you may notice issues or news about babies affects me in a big way...well this is basically the reason why I started blogging. Because I want to share with people every little step my husband and I are taking until the time comes we are blessed with our own angel.

So for those who are expecting or have kids already...be thankful and you are all very blessed.

As my friends would say, when their kids were born, blessings just come unexpectedly. Children are truly a blessing and they are the future!

What Makes Me Happy? What Makes Me Sad?

2008-09-11T13:12:00.002+08:00

I was tagged by Sheryll...thanks girl!

Start copy here:

Here are the Rules:
1. List things that makes you happy and what makes you sad.
2. Add your blog to the list. Feel free to add all your other blogs.
3. Tag other online friends you know...Toni, Jeng, Emz, Sheryll, Bunnie, YOU

What makes me happy?

1. My hubby!!! :-)
2. Being with family and friends
3. Our baby dog --- Chase!
4. Going to the parlor and a massage
5. Eating my favorite any of my favorite food --- like California Maki...yum!!!
6. Xmas and my bday

What makes me sad?

1. Fights with hubby or with anyone I love
2. Seeing people I love or not know sad
3. Street children
4. Calamity
5. Death

Cofee Break ver 1.35

2008-09-11T12:44:00.002+08:00

This is my answer to Jan's coffee break...thanks Jan!

I am a strong believer in the power of prayer. In a persons life, each of us go through our own personal trials or struggles. But but how do we all deal with it? Again, we all have our own personal way of handling everything but I must say a common denominator is prayer. Whatever religion you believe in or you may have --- prayer is still the key to all our hardships.

After going through two miscarriages, it really tore me apart. I didnt know what to do or believe in. At the start I didnt understand why this was happening or what God was trying to convey. It was during my second miscarriage when I really felt broken --- such a heartbreaking experience for me at a certain point I just stopped praying. I'd have all these questions in my head and with my selfish ways --- I needed or demanded answers right away! One day after my D&C, I was at home resting, flowers were delievered to my house. It came from one of my best friends from college. The fowers were so colorful and bright, it really cheered me up. I will never forget that. This gesture made a big difference to what I was feeling at that time. Because of those flowers I realized how blessed I am. How lucky I am to have a very supportive husband, loving family and to have the best of the best of friends a girl could ever have. The same day I received the flowers, I started praying again. This time I wasnt praying to get pregnant again but for God to give me and Gin the strength to face the challenges that comes along with my difficulty in getting pregnant, the wisdom to understand all that has happened or will happen and of course forgiveness.

Months have passed and it was only recently that I understood what His reasons might be. This is because of the power of prayer. My belief and faith --- not to give up is what I am holding on to now. Everything happens for a reason. We may not get answers right away but in time He will make use understand eventually. He has bigger and better plans for us. We just have to be patient.

This is something I live by each day, "Do What You Can. Dont Give Up. Let God Surprise You." --- by Bo Sanchez Hope this is something all of you can also keep in mind. :-)

Confused

2008-09-04T08:22:00.003+08:00

Confused. This is the word that describes what I feel right now.

Priorities in life change when you get married...I know. Although sometimes there are certain things that you cannot ignore or not do but at the same time you need to think it over a number of times before you actually engage yourself in the act.

In life, you have a number of people that you hold close to your heart. How do you balance things when the time comes that a certain person or group needs your help? You know helping another person is something you are more than willing to do especially if it is a loved one. The question is, what are the boundaries? Given the fact that you have a different set of priorities because of the new life you have but you dont want to see them having a hard time or see them sad? Do I sound confused or what?

Yes, I need to think things over and from there determine if I can or I cannot...

Finally

2008-08-18T11:40:00.002+08:00

Finally I get to blog again!!!

Its been crazy at work because of a new development that happened last month. Anyway, I've been looking forward to this long weekend and the next long weekend. Just for the simple reason that I get to rest and spend more time with hubby.

So what has happened during the past weeks? For me, its just been work, work and work! Every time I get home from work I am always dead tired. Like last Friday, after eating dinner, I fell asleep still wearing my office clothes. Hehe! Good thing I woke up at around 1am to freshen up and change to sleeping clothes. Oh and we were able to book our flight already. Yey! We're leaving on October 14. Gin and I are so excited!!!

Anyway, its the wedding of one of my good friends from work today. I have to get ready. Will blog again soon... :-)

Being Married

2008-07-25T21:55:00.003+08:00

Married life...it is indeed bittersweet! Why so?

When you fight and then make up --- making up for me is the best part! Calling your hubby's attention when he forgets to hang the towel after taking a bath, picking up after your hubby, whenever he says "babe ang kulit mo!" but realizes at the end what your point is. He really tests your patience but at the end of the day you cannot stand being mad or away from him. Weird huh? Is this what they call LOVE? I guess so. Not only accepting the persons good side but also his flaws. To love the complete package!

I am sure for each married couple, they have their own story to tell. All our stories are different one way or another. But a common denominator (I believe) is that the wife is the pillar and strength of every family. Don't you think so? I can say this because based on my experiences and my friends stories...its really the woman who keeps hold of everything. May it be handling the household, husband and wife troubles, children, keeping values intact, etc. But please don't get me wrong, our husbands play a big role also in this equation. Where would we be without them right? Its just amazing on how a woman can multi task things in her life. Family, work, her social life, personal stuff (going to the parlor, shopping, etc) and of course God.

My hubby and I don't have a perfect marriage --- who does? But I will not trade what we have for anything. Marriage is not an easy ride but we constantly are learning from each other and it has been great! As my mom says, we've got a long way to go, a lot to learn and discover and I welcome this challenge with open arms. My hubby is what makes me whole and our imperfections makes us love each other more each day! :-)

Lets Eat!

2008-07-25T21:46:00.002+08:00

I got this tag from Joy --- hmmm...made me hungry too! I love food!!! hehehe! :-)

-START HERE —Eaters: kathyrazzi kathycot buhaymisis whenmomspeaks kathycotcooks my precious niche just me.. eds edsmommylife Me,Myself+2 Le bric à brac de Cherie Chez Francine La Place de Cherie My Angels World, Life is Good and Beautiful, From This Side. my life right before your very eyes. ADD YOUR BLOG HERE!

1. Chicken sa McDo, Jollibee, or KFC? - I love Chicken Joy!!!
2. Pepsi, Coke, or rootbeer? - Coke is it!
3. Greenwich, Pizza Hut, or Yellow Cab? - Yellow Cab
4. Adobo, sinigang, or nilaga? Sinigang na baboy na may Gabi...hayyy..all time fave!!!
5. Beef, pork, or chicken? - Pork Rules!!!
6. Starbucks, Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf, or Gloria Jean’s? - Starbucks (coffee jelly, hot choco and toffee nut frap)
7. Cornflakes, Honey Stars, or Milo cereal? - Cornflakes
8. Goldilocks or Red Ribbon? - Definitely Red Ribbon!
9. Tokyo Tokyo, Teriyaki Boy or Rai Rai Ken? - Terriyaki Boy
10. Take Out or Dine In? It depends on our mood....but we most of the time we dine in.
— END HERE —

My Project

2008-07-16T16:19:00.004+08:00

I've been mentioning in my blogs that work has been keeping me really busy these past few weeks or should I say month. Well, its because of this project. This is also the reason why I am leaving for the US this October. Basically this event will kick off this July 27 and will have a series of roadshows up to September and the main event will happen in October.

There is still things that I have to do --- which is kind of stressing me out already. But its all good! Thats how it is I guess!

ABC's of Fashion

2008-07-15T17:35:00.002+08:00

I was tagged by Farrah. Thanks! :-)

A: What accessories do you wear everyday?

***earrings and my wedding ring (on weekdays because i just commute going to work; but during the weekends i also wear my engagement ring, my moms ring plus a watch or bangles or bracelets)

B: What is your beauty routine?

***Morning ritual: i wash my face with cetaphil, derma meds and sun block on my face, then lotion for my body, put on some lip balm before putting on lipstick and lastly a splash of cologne.***At night: i wash my face, derma meds, moisturizer, lotion, vaseline on my lips and splash of cologne.

C: What was the last item of clothing (for yourself) that you purchased?

***Tops from my sister in law

D: Do you use a dresser, closet, or both?

***Both.

E: What type of earrings are in your ears right now?

***Pearls.

F: What type of figure do you have?

***hahahaha...do i have to answer this?

G: Do you wear glasses?

***nope.

H: What type of handbag do you carry?

***i like big bags.

I: What is your ideal style?

***i like wearing jeans and whatever top i feel like wearing. i am into flat shoes now..di ko na kaya mag heels unlike before. but once in a while i still wear heels.

J: What jewelry are you wearing right now?

***my wedding ring and some bracelets

K: Do you wear knee-hi stockings?

***nope

L: Do you *have* to wear matching lingerie?

***it doesnt have to be the same

M: Do you wear makeup?

***if i am in the office, i just wear lipstick. but during the weekends or when i go out, i put on powder, mascara, blush plus lipstick.

N: Do you wear nightgowns?

***not really night gowns. its like those big shirts.

O: What outerwear do you put on when going out on a typical winters day?

***ummm...havent experienced winter.

P: What is your favorite perfume?

***same as farrah light blue by D&G.

Q: Is your motto “quality over quantity” when it comes to clothing and accessories?

***Yes.

R: Do you wear rain boots?

***No

S: Do you wear socks or slippers when your feet get cold?

***Yes.

T: Do you have a set of travel luggage?***Yes.

U: What is your daily uniform?

***jeans and a dressy top for work.

V: If you are married, did you wear a veil with your wedding dress? If not, how did you do your hair?

***Yes i did.

W: Do you wear a watch?

***Yes but not all the time. I am not really a watch person.

X: What item of clothing always makes you feel extremely beautiful?

***nice pair of jeans.

Y: What is your favorite type of yarn?

***none.

Z: Do you prefer zippers or buttons?

***buttons

Random Q's

2008-07-08T08:46:00.002+08:00

I was tagged by Sheryll. Thanks! :-)

The rules are simple. At the end of the post, the player tags 6 people and posts their names, then goes to their blog and leaves a comment, letting them know they’ve been tagged and asking them to read your blog. Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve posted your answer.

1. What was I doing 10 years ago? I was still in college...on my fourth year.
2. What are the 5 things on my to-do list today?
- meet with the writer for the PR of our event
- follow up some suppliers
- meeting, meeting , meeting
- exercise at home -- hip hop abs! Yeah..hehehe!
- sleep early
3. Snacks I enjoy: oreo cookies and chips
4. Place where I lived: QC, Alabang and now in Pque
5. Things I’d do if I were a billionaire:
buy a house and lot for me and gin, my parents and parents in law, buy a range rover, donate some to charity and share some money with my siblings, travel to europe and save some in the bank.
6. People I want to know more: Jan, Nikki and Tracy

Whats up?

2008-07-08T08:18:00.005+08:00

As usual, its been busy at work for me. I havent been updating my blog if you would notice. Now I have a chance...

Anyway, we had our interview yesterday at the US Embassy (me, Gin and my MIL) and we passed! Yipee!!! The interview lasted only for two minutes and we were waiting for more than 2 hours. It was worth the wait! We are leaving for the US this October. One is because of work --- I have to attend an event my company is producing (since this is my project too) and at the same time I was able to convince Gin to go on a vacation with me since I am there already --- might as well take the opportunity. Our long overdue honeymoon and well deserved break! I am so excited for Gin because its his first time to go to the US and our first time to travel out of the country together. This has been my dream for him or should I say one my wishes that we will travel to the US together and now its almost coming true. Almost because we havent bought the ticket yet. Hehehe! Its going to be lots of fun!!! :-) Gin is also excited. He was pessimistic at the start because he was worried about work but now he's showing some excitement already.

With this happening, Gin and I decided to move my treatment to a later date --- later this year that is. Which is okay I guess. We cant afford to take this trip and also spend for my treatment. The treatment doesnt come cheap. At first I felt sad, because I really wanted to go through LIT already. I am hoping and praying that I can get pregnant again this year after completing the treatment but there is a reason for everything. Maybe God wants us to take this chance to spend quality time together and get to experience being in another country before having a baby. Which I suppose we cannot really do freely once we have our baby. Also, its a privilege for me to be sent by my company and represent them in this event.

What did I realize here? "I cant have my cake and eat it too!" I think God is trying to tell me that there should be a balance with all the things that are happening in my life. One wish at a time and I am not complaining... :-)

Patience

2008-06-26T08:45:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a long day for me at work. With all the things I have to do plus the fact that I am in the "pre-its just one of those days" stage --- I can get ticked off easily. Know what I mean girls? I am sure most of you have had encounters with co-workers wherein you dont meet eye to eye. This is normal in any office environment or in any kind of organization for that matter. Well, that encounter happened to me yesterday. Hayyy, I was really irritated! As much as I wanted to control what I was going to say, sorry but I couldnt help myself! Hey I am only human. It wasnt really a big issue or there was a big arguement or what so ever. It was just simply voicing out my thoughts because for me that person wasnt being respectful in a professional level. Though at the end being the softhearted person that I am, I took the initiative of pacifying things because I didnt want to have any bad blood with anyone in the office. Even if I know I was the one that was offended. We are part of one organization and we will still be working together on future projects. I told this person : "trabaho lang walang personalan".

Oh well, so much for that!

Gin is working on a new project. Its almost done actually but for the past week, we havent really had q.t. together. Since construction in the malls is done after mall hours --- he usually gets home early in the morning already. When I get home from work, he's about to leave already. Then when I am about to wake up for work, thats when he is about to go to sleep. I feel sad because I miss him so much! Hopefully this weekend we can get to spend more time together since he's done with that project and before he starts with the new one.

Patience is indeed a virtue.

Moment of Truth

2008-06-23T16:52:00.003+08:00

I was tagged by Tracy! Thanks girl! :-)

Are you deeply in love with your spouse or boyfriend/girlfriend? If you do, let's try how well you remember the moment of your life with him. But before you put yourself in the hot seat please read the rules of this tag first.

RULES: 1. This tag should be pass on to your friends. 2. Visit the blog of the person you've got this tag. 3. Leave a comment on her/his tag post. Be sure to thank her/him for this tag. 4. Highlight and link all the list of people who accepted this tag by visiting their blog site. 5. There are 10 questions that you need to answer but you will be the one to write the 10th question for the next person you want to pass this tag.

Here are the questions. Be honest with your answers.
1. How did you meet your husband/wife or boyfriend/girlfriend?

- Gin and I knew each other since HS because his sister was my batch mate. So I'd get to hang out with his sister and their other brother whose older than both of them. Even up to college I would see him around because he'd be picking up his sister and ex-gf since we were all going to the same college. But for me, no sparks flew because I was in a relationship at that time. It was when I started working and I was sort of single already that I started noticing him. We have a lot of common friends actually and it was one of my good friends that told me this shocking revelation...she told me that Gin has had this crush on me since HS!!! Of course I was kilig to death. Hahaha! Then the rest is history :-)

2. Where did you go on your first date?

- We watched Spiderman (the very first one) in ATC and had some drinks in Dencios Alabang

3. When was your first intimate kiss?

- June 22, 2003 in Tagaytay. When I answered him.

4. How many girlfriends/boyfriends he/she had in the past? Do you honestly know?

- He's had 4 ex gf's.

5. What is his/her ethnicity?

- 100% Pinoy.

6. What is his/her favorite food?

- Japanese and Filipino

7. What is he/she like if he/she is mad?

- You better start finding your hiding place once he gets mad.

8. What are the things he/she did you thought is the most romantic thing he'd/she'd ever done?

- He surprised me with a Japanese dinner in their house during Valentines.

9. Describe how he/you proposed to you.

- It wasnt really that romantic. We were already planning for our wedding even before he gave me the ring. It was January 2006. We were going to make salubong my birthday. After dinner we went to Cafe Adriatico in Alabang. It was almost the eve of my bday, the waiter puts two blow jobs on our table. I was like "whats this?". He says "lets drink...lapit na bday mo!". I was like "I dont want to drink!". But he insisted that I do...so I did. I took the shot without even looking at the shot glass. Then he says that my glass is not yet empty. My face was "huh?" So I look at the shot glass...and there was the ring!

10. Was it easy for you to adjust during your first few months of being married?
My answer to Tracy's question: Same as Tracy, I have to pick up after Gin. To keep on reminding him about stuff.

Busy. Busy. Busy

2008-06-23T16:38:00.003+08:00

Its been so busy for me at work. Everytime I get home --- I am dead tired! Though I was able to rest during the weekend. One because of the storm and I really had no where to go to. I was home alone almost the whole day of Saturday (with the maid and Chase). Hubby had to work and my parents in law were out.

Speaking of storm Frank, my gosh...I thought there was going to be another Millenio moment since the intesity of the storm was almost the same or should I say was the same as Millenio's. Since we didnt have electricity early morning Sunday, I thought it was going to be like during Millenio when for how many days there wasnt any electricity. Good thing that didnt happen again! But sad there were quite a number of tragedies that happened because of the storm. :-( God bless their souls!

Anyway, thats it for now. Til my next blog... :-)

Blood Screening Results

2008-06-11T09:56:00.001+08:00

I called PGH yesterday and asked about our blood screening results and everything is A-OK! Yay!!! :-) Thank you God!

Our next step is to schedule the 1st session of the Lymphocite Immunization Therapy already with my Immunologist. LIT should be done thrice --- once a month with the same interval each month. Although we can only try again after the second session.

I'm quite excited and scared at the same time...hopefully this works for us!

Describe Yourself Today

2008-06-05T08:26:00.003+08:00

I was tagged by Tracy --- thanks girl!

Rules:
1. List 6 things that describe yourself today.
2. Add your blog to the list. Feel free to add all your other blogs.
3. Tag other online friends you know.

This is me today:
1. Same as Tracy -- I am so looking forward to the long weekend!!! Yipee!!!
2. Going to have a busy day today because its our company outing tom and theres no work on Monday.
3. Psyching myself -- need to exercise when I get home from work later
4. Excited to eat my lunch. Its my latest favorite --- Takaw Beef from Gourmet (food joint in the South). Made lambing hubby last night and he bought it for me!
5. Thinking of what we can do this weekend.
6. Its 8:30AM, my mind is not really in work mode yet. Hehe!

Links: Creative In Me, Little Peanut, Me and Mine, Pea in a Pod, Sugar Magnolias, BLOGGERHAPPY, Berry Scrappy, Changing Lanes, Pit Stop, Kapturd, and so i am, Princess Bela, Our Journey To Life, My Planet Purple, Women xplore, Princess Vien, A Pcketful Of Happiness, As We Face Forever, Our Family Adventure!, My Random Thoughts, My World, My Life Right Before Your Very Eyes

I am tagging Joy and Mari!

A morning quote

2008-06-04T13:40:00.002+08:00

I got this morning quote from one of my cousin-in-laws. It is something that helped me get through my "ka-praningan" this morning. Let me share it with you...

"God seldom does great things in a hurry.

So let us wait patiently.

True patience means awaiting God's time without doubting God's love!"

For those who are waiting for something or seeking answers...hope this message helps you in one way or another. As the song goes... "In His time...He makes all things beautiful in His time!"

Blood Screening

2008-06-04T11:52:00.007+08:00

How did my morning go?

First, I didnt wake up on time for my morning exercise which is okay because I can do it when I get home from work later. I had half of the grilled cheese sandwich my MIL prepared for breakfast then did my morning rituals. I woke Gin up at exactly 7AM because we had to leave the house before 8 for PGH to have our blood screening. After getting ready, Gin was going to heat up the car already but guess what? It didnt want to start. At that point I didnt want to get superstitious and all but I couldnt help it. I was thinking to myself "is this a sign that we cant have a baby?" I actually was tearing up. But I had to be strong and just brush off that thought. No negative vibe is allowed! Finally, the mechanic of Gins brother arrived and fixed the problem of the car. Phew!!! We were able to leave the house a little past 8 which was still okay.

Anyway, hubby and I had to go to PGH for our blood screening because we both have to be cleared of the following before we can undergo LIT:

For Gin:
CBC
HIV
HbsAg
Anti HCV
Malarial Smear
VDRL
Anti Hbs

For me:
HbsAg
Anti Hbs

For Gins blood screening, PGH has a package that costs P1,200. This includes everything except for Anti Hbs which costs only P165. As for mine, the HbsAg costs P150 and the Anti Hbs costs P165. Their rates are not bad at all compared to the rates of Asian Hospital. When we inquired with Asian as to how much the blood screening is going to cost --- it reached P8k! Can you believe the big difference? Good thing my Immunologist recommended PGH.

We might get the results by Friday. Hopefully, the results will turn out okay so that we can proceed with the treatment already.

So I guess, having our blood screening was really meant to happen today despite the obstacles with the car this morning. Thank you Lord!!! :-)

Do's and Dont's to a Childless Couple

2008-06-04T07:52:00.003+08:00

Something I got from Ivy...

* Don't ask a childless person when they are going to have a child. They may be going through the process of trying to conceive but have not yet achieved success. Asking them only reminds them of their problem. They need no extra reminders.

* Don't relate stories of your fertility to them. Hearing "my husband just has to look at me and I get pregnant" is very annoying. While well-meaning, the statement is insensitive.

* Don't give advice such as "just relax," "you are trying too hard" or "take a cruise." All of these very common comments imply that the couple has control of their fertility. Most of the time, these couples have absolutely no control over their fertility. Implying control leads to feelings of failure and guilt when this advice doesn't work.

* Don't offer advice such as sexual timing, position, herbal medications or other totally unproven therapies. There are literally hundreds of old-wife's-tails that, when followed, can drive an infertile patient nearly crazy. Their physician will have covered those natural aspects of their care that may maximize their chances for conception. Once again, please to not imply that they have a sense of control.

* Don't express your derogatory personal opinions regarding insemination procedures, test-tube babies or adoption. Sometimes, these are their only hope for having a child. These are your opinions and uninvited advice is rarely neither desired nor constructive. You are absolutely entitled to your opinion, simply keep it your own. If they ask for your advice, then feel free to state your opinions, but do so in a kind and considerate manner.

* Don't place blame by accusing the couple of exercising too much, eating the wrong foods or drinking alcohol. These couples may already be blaming themselves. Their physician will have already covered the medical and reproductive consequences of obesity, smoking, alcohol and recreation drugs. Support them in the cessation of these activities and minimize the guilt associated with their consumption. The guilt rarely leads to cessation but often moves the individual to increased consumption.

What You Can Say and Do...

* Do provide couples with plenty of emotional support by saying "It must be difficult to go through this" and "I'm here to listen if you need to talk."

* Do remember that men can be just as emotional about the problem, sometimes even more so. They may feel their masculinity is at risk.

* Do understand the couple's need for privacy.

* Do try to understand that if they are your employees, frequent doctor's appointments may be necessary during business hours. Please try to accommodate them as much as possible. Not doing so may also be construed as a form of discrimination and place you at legal risk.

* Do understand why they may not make it to a baby shower or a holiday event. These frequent events can become overwhelming for an infertile couple.

* Do tell the infertile couple that there is hope.

its all about you & me tag

2008-06-03T15:40:00.004+08:00

I was tagged by Gracie - thanks thanks! :-)

RULES:

1. add your blog/s to the list. feel free to add all your other blogs. it’s okay if you only post these questions in one blog as long as you answer them.
2. get back to ME {refers to YEN} and i’ll add your blogs to the master’s list here! yup, another linking thingy but this one has 15 questions and you get to enjoy answering them too!
3. tag as many friends online you know. but you don’t need to be tagged in order to join.

QUESTIONS:

1. when you buy a greeting card, are the words or the picture more important to you?- BOTH

2. what’s your favorite kind of cake?- strawberry or mango cheescake or even just the cake by Contis or Red Ribbon --- YUMMY!!!

3. do you ever make gifts for people, if so what, or do you buy them?- well not really make but i try as much as possible that each gift is fit to the personality of the person

4. what’s your favorite holiday?- XMAS!!!

5. are you going on holiday this year? if so, where?- might go to the US --- business plus pleasure. long overdue honeymoon.

6. what was the best party you’ve ever been to?- bday parties of my friends

7. if you are married, describe your wedding. If not, what would your ideal wedding be like?- every inch of our wedding was very well thought of. as my friend described it simple yet you could feel all the love and happiness in the room.

8. what’s the most romantic thing that’s ever happened to you?- i cant really name one. but simply being alone with my hubby is romantic --- wink! wink!

9. what’s your favorite girl’s name?- Nicole

10. what’s your favorite boy’s name?- hmmm...Enzo or Santino

11. which celebrity would you like a dream date with?- same as Gracie --- its got to be Justin Timberlake.

12. which female celebrity do you find beautiful?- catherine zeta jones and gretchen barreto

13. which male celebrity do you think is attractive?- chad michael murray

14. what is your best character trait?- i am very easy to get along with. not a difficult person to please.

15. what is your worst habit?- worrying too much

I am tagging Tracy, Jan and Joy

Te list:
1. Me and Mine
2.Creative In Me
3.Little Peanut
4. Pea in a Pod
5. Sugar Magnolias
6.Me,Myself+2
7.FunFierceFabulous
8. Supermodel Wannabe
9. A Reality Bite
10. My Life Right Before Your Very Eyes
11. YOUR BLOG HERE

At Work

2008-05-29T16:21:00.003+08:00

I am tired. Not tired of what I am doing...just generally tired.

For the past few days or should I say weeks have been very busy for me. I have noticed that I am looking forward even more to the weekends. If you are part of my YM list...my status usually would be LOOKING FORWARD TO THE WEEKEND even before this busy-ness of mine started. But do not get me wrong here, I really enjoy what I am doing and I love my job but I guess its just the work load that I have now because of this event I am putting up. Though I am also excited at the same time because this is something big and new for our team. So I have been really focused on putting things in order for it to be a success. I am OC like that! :-P

Because of this event, I might or I will be sent to the US by the company because the event will be held there which makes it more exciting! I told hubby that he should go with me already and make this our long overdue honeymoon --- 100x exciting! Hehehe!

Anyway, I need to get back to work. Just wanted to de-focus for a few minutes. :-)

My Sunday Afternoon

2008-05-25T14:39:00.002+08:00

My Sunday afternoon.

Its exactly 2:40PM and we were supposed to hear mass this morning but Gin and his dad didnt wake up early. I prefer hearing mass in the morning so that we have the whole afternoon to do whatever. So to kill time, what did I do? I fixed my closet, made our bed, arranged my clothes, surfed the net and now writing this blog.

I asked our dirver to set up the Glider which Gin hasnt used for a looong time. Why did I have it set up? Because I really need to lose weight. My weight now --- its depressing already. Not only that, I need exercise --- this is for health reasons. I just want to start being active again and not feel so lumpy all the time and maybe it will reduce the back pains I feel every now and then. After mass later, I will get on that Glider and burn those fats away. Hehehe!!! I have to stop postponing this and start exercising now!!!

What else happened in the past few hours? Hmmmm...Gin gave Chase a bath. Finally!!! But you know, Chase doesnt smell like a dog even if he hasnt take a bath for like a week. He doesnt have the stinky smell. I think its because of the dog food. We give him table food once in a while but I dont want him to get used it. Anyway, what else, what else? Do I sound bored? hehehe... Well, Gin is busy playing with his PSP. I am starting to hate that darn thing. Sometimes I wish I didnt get that toy for him. Are your hubbys addicted to their PSP's too? Gin would sleep at 3 or even 4am just playing PSP. Oh well! Boys will be boys!!! :-P

Am I still making sense with what I am writing here? I hope so...

I guess thats it for me. Will start getting ready for mass. :-)

Ten Random Things About Me

2008-05-23T19:52:00.002+08:00

I was tagged by Joy. Thanks girl! :-)

The rules are:

1. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
2. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.
3. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 10 people to get tagged and list the ten random things about themselves.Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

Here are the ten random things about me:

1. I have to be in bed by 10pm or even earlier.
2. I learned to drive on my own --- with the help of my friends and family driver. This was when I was in 1st year college.
3. I am the youngest in the family.
4. Gin and I were bf and gf for four years.
5. I love dogs!
6. My office is in Makati and I live in Pque.
7. I have three handsone nephews.
8. I like getting massages.
9. I am more of a home buddy --- i dont like going out that much!
10. I love SM and Landmark...hehe! :-)

I am tagging Jan and Tracy.

Its our baby's 1st bday!

2008-05-21T19:45:00.004+08:00

Yes you got that right! We have a baby and its his 1st bday today! Who is this baby I am talking about? Its our doggy Chase --- a male Wirehaired Dachshund. May 21 is not really his real bday. Since we just adopted him from my nephew and he didn't know the exact date he was born. All he could tell us was that he was born in May. So Gin and I decided to set his bday on the 21st of this month. Why 21? Because we got married December 21. Hehehe!

Chase has played a significant or should I say is playing a significant role in my life and same with Gin. He's not only our pet, he's already part of the family. We treat him like our kid. Believe me when I say that he is one spoiled Dachshund! I am pretty sure all the dog lovers out there don't see their pet dogs as just pets but like us, they are already family. Given the present situation with regards to having a baby, with Chase around its like we already have our own little angel --- in this case it has lots of fur.

I remember Chase was just about 2 months old when we first got him. He was so little but already playful. From day one he was used to sleeping in our room. At first we would layer old towels on the floor and thats where he would usually sleep but as he got older he'd sleep with us on the bed. Now that he is a year old, he has tripled in size and has become more affectionate but still playful or is it super kulit?

Dogs can be like humans too. You can see if they feel bad or when they are happy. For instance, whenever Gin and I get into an arguement and I end up crying, I would see Chase looking at me then a little later he would approach me and start licking my face. Its as if he knows that I am sad.

Having Chase is one of our simplest joys in life. Gin and I miss him whenever we are away. Even if we are both are just at work. When he's sick we super worry. Just like regular parents. What more if we really have our own baby? Gin would even ask me, "paano yan pag may baby na tayo? saan na si chase?" I just told Gin, we will figure it out when we get there.

All I can say is --- I love having Chase around and it was a good move to adopt him from my nephew.

Happy Bday Chasey boy! :-)

Our experience in Obando

2008-05-20T20:04:00.000+08:00

Gin and I together with our married friends went to Obando last Saturday. We left the south at 6:30am. Gin and I overslept actually. We were supposed to leave at 6am. Anyway, the trip wasn't so bad. Since it was still early there was no traffic along Edsa. We got to Obando before 9am. The mass was still ongoing and we were all amazed by the number of people that attended. Mostly married couples.

When we got there, we entered first the church and said our prayers. As we waited, we asked the locals which among the three Saints should we follow. One local asked "Ano ba ho ang hiling nyo?" and we said "Magka baby po". Then he told us to follow the float of Santa Clara. So we immediately positioned ourselves near her float. A female local standing near us even shared her story. She danced during this festival years ago and was blessed with not one, not two but 5 kids. How about that? As per this lady, it really works!

May 17 was the feast of San Pascual - saint for good harvest but all three saints were part of the procession. The procession started a little past 9. Good thing the weather was kind of cool. Though it would rain every now and then but it didn't really pour.

We were walking and semi dancing for almost 2 hours and we ended it in the church. This is where all the dancing happened. As the priest would say "Isayaw nyo ang mga hiling nyo!" So we did! The church was packed with people. Each individual asking for their own personal longings --- either to have a baby, good harvest or even a life partner.

As Gin and I were dancing, I would continuously pray for the chance of having our own baby and for all those who are present and are asking for a baby be blessed with one too.

Some people swear by this festival and there are those who don't believe in it. Whatever it is...it doesn't hurt to try and its our faith that keeps us going.

This experience was worth it and I know keeping my faith strong will help me get through all the challenges that will come my way.

Obando Fertility Festival

2008-05-15T21:02:00.000+08:00

On Saturday Gin and I are going to the Obando Fertility Festival. This is a yearly event. It is held every May 17 to 19 honoring three Saints --- The Virgin of Salambao, San Pascual and Santa Clara.

I am sure all of you know why Gin and I are going to this festival. But for the benefit of those who don't, couples that are childless go to this festival and take the chance to appeal for heavenly intercession and dance to please the three Saints I mentioned above. Aside from me and Gin, our married friends who are also trying to conceive will be joining us. I was even joking the wife of our friend that I am going to do all the dance steps there is...ala beyonce, rhianna, folk dance, hip hop...what have you! Lahat gagawin ko para magka baby na kami! Hehehe! :-)

I've heard and read stories of couples who attended this festival and we're blessed with a baby. I have to admit, it really gives me more hope and it wont hurt if we try it out right?

Gin has been very supportive and like me, I can see how important it is also for him to attend this festival.

Well til my next blog...I will share with all of you my experience in this festival. I cant wait! :-)

Lymphocyte Immunization Therapy (LIT)

2008-05-12T19:53:00.000+08:00

Finally I was able to get the name of the treatment that I need (thanks to a fellow N@Wie)! Its called Lymphocyte Immunization Therapy or LIT for short. If you are wondering what this does, here is a description that I was able to get through Google:

LIT (Lymphocyte Immunization Therapy) - Lymphocyte immune therapy is used in women with recurrent spontaneous abortions. This immunization is made from the father-to-be's blood or sometimes from a donor's blood. It is injected under the skin of the mother's forearm. This is done twice, separated by one month. Testing to see that it has worked is done one month after the second treatment. Common reactions to this treatment include: swelling, irritation, and itching at the injection site. Some women run a fever after this treatment.

Lymphocyte - This is a white blood cell that is in charge of starting antigen specific immunity responses. There are many types of lymphocytes in the immune family. These consist of T cells, B cells, granulocytes, basophils, mast cells, eosiniophils, Natural Killer Cells, etc. Each cell type has a CD designation.

So there you have it. Together with prayers I know we will have our chance!

Blood Test Update

2008-05-11T09:41:00.001+08:00

So I went to my Immunologist yesterday to show her the results of my blood test. Most of the results were okay except for two wherein the range was quite high compared to the normal range. The good thing about it is, my case is not as bad as I thought it would be. Phew!!! But it doesn't end there. I have to undergo treatment. Thank God its not the P100K worth of treatment. My Immunologist recommended blood transfusion (there's a term for it, I just forgot what its called...its something therapy). It goes something like this: I need 100 ml of Gins blood and this process needs to be done for 3 months. It may not be as expensive as the P100K treatment but it will still cost us money. Sigh!

As per my Immunologist, after the second blood transfusion, that's the only time we can try again. The purpose of this blood transfusion is to boost up my immune system. Because right now, my immune system thinks that everytime I get pregnant, the baby is something foreign. So my killer cells attack the baby which results to a miscarriage. Sounds complicated huh? When I thought I wouldn't have a difficult time getting pregnant.

What do I feel right now? I am happy and at the same time sad but I just don't want to focus on the negative thoughts anymore but look forward to the possibilities even if its going to be a challenge for us financially and physically for me.

So the next step for us, is to check if Gin is healthy before we undergo the transfusion. If the results are good then we can start with the treatment. Hopefully, by that time we will be financially ready too.

Patience is indeed a virtue. One step at a time. I always have to remember this: "Dont Give Up. Do What You Can. Let God Surprise You."

I know in time we will have our own little angel!

What Am I?

2008-05-11T09:22:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Gracey and Jan for tagging me! I am a Slug --- Jan we're the same! :-)

If you are a Slug : Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what mak e s you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

LOOK UP YOUR BIRTHDAY AND SEE WHAT YOU ARE. FORWARD ON TO PEOPLE THAT YOU THINK THAT WOULD GET A KICK OUT OF THIS... INCLUDING THE PERSON WHO SENT IT TO YOU. PUT YOUR BIRTHDAY ANIMAL IN THE SUBJECT LINE AND PASS IT ON.

Don't forget to scroll down to see what it says about you.

January 01 - 09 ~ Ass
January 10 - 24 ~ Slug
January 25 - 31 ~ Cockroach
February 01 - 05 ~ Parasite
February 06 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
February r y 15 - 21 ~ Skunk
February 22 - 28 ~ Snake
March 01 - 12 ~ Ape
March 13 - 15 ~ Cockroach
March 16 - 23 ~ Slug
March 24 - 31 ~ Parasite

April 01 - 03 ~ Ass
April 04 - 14 ~ Snake
April 15 - 26 ~ Slug
April 27 - 30 ~ Skunk
May 01 - 13 ~ Slug
May 14 - 21 ~ Bullfrog
May 22 - 31 ~ Cockroach
June 01 - 03 ~ Slug
June 04 - 14 ~ Skunk
June 15 - 20 ~ Ass
June 21 - 24 ~ Ape
June 25 - 30 ~ Parasite

July 01 - 09 ~ Slug
July 10 - 15 ~ Ass
July 16 - 26 ~ Bullfrog
July 27 - 31 ~ Parasite
August 01 - 15 ~ Ape
August 16 - 25 ~ Slug
August 26 - 31 ~ Skunk
September 01 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
September 15 - 27 ~ Parasite
September 28 - 30 ~ Ass

October 01 - 15 ~ Ape
October 16 - 27 ~ Skunk
October 28 - 31 ~ Snake
November 01 - 16 ~ Cockroach
November 17 - 30 ~ Parasite
December 01 - 16 ~ Ass
December 17 - 25 ~ Ape
December 26 - 31 ~ Bullfrog

If you are an Ass : A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble, and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little gr! oup of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified.

If you are a Slug : Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what mak e s you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Cockroach : Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfull! y deriv e work from people. You love being loved and when you receive your share of limelight from s omeone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... Hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.....

If you are a Parasite : An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Skunk : You are near to perfect and nice at heart! . The e xamples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give, and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

If you are a Bullfrog : You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of fri ends! and go od at consoling pe ople in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....

If you are a Snake : You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the w! ay you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are an Ape : Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are.

I am tagging Nikki and Farrah!

Red Rose for the ladies

2008-05-06T20:38:00.000+08:00

This rose came from Gracie

Thank you! :-)

A red rose has number of thorns in it, when it pinches your fingers it hurts. everyday in my life is just like red roses. sometimes life is not always a bed of roses, but life is great with GOD. now, it's my turn to share this red rose.

I am passing this rose on to Jan.

Blood Test

2008-05-06T20:20:00.000+08:00

If you would refer to one of my blogs last month, my Immunologist asked me to take another series of blood tests to check if I had the other kinds of blood disorders aside from APAS. Well, this morning I went to PGH and had the blood test. Boy was it expensive!!! Anyway, I will get the results this Friday and then go back to my Immunologist next Saturday to consult her on what should be done so as to avoid having another miscarriage.

Hopefully, after this test and consultation, I can have a successful pregnancy already.

One proud wife..Yes I am!

2008-04-23T12:46:00.001+08:00

Yes, I am one proud wife! Why so? Let me share it with you...

My hubby is an Interior Designer/Contractor. He's designed a number of homes and commercial establishments and I have to say, not because he's my husband but he's really good with his craft.

First reason why I am proud is because he finally decided to get an office. My reaction to this? Yipee --- FINALLY!!! In the past, he would usually conduct business in our house which for me was sometimes intrusive --- somewhat invading our privacy because his people would go there and sometimes his suppliers. So you see, when he's at home, his attention is divided which at times saddens me. Before he decided to put up his office, I would often tell him to get one already and he would always say "di pa kaya" or he would postpone the idea. The reason for this is because I wanted him to practice the way of life that whenever he is at home, there will be no work unless he has to draw or he has to discuss something with his dad since his drawing table is at home and we live with our parents in law --- thats fine with me! At least now, no more business transactions at home!

Another reason why I am a proud wife is that one of his projects was featured in the latest Star Studio magazine. He designed and constructed a home of a male celebrity. As his wife, it was a kilig factor for me. Not only did the magazine show pictures of his work but also his name was mentioned in the article. Many thanks to his client who is also a friend of ours!

To my excitement, as soon as I got to the office yesterday and punched in my time card, I stepped out for a while and headed to the nearest 7-11 but they didnt have the latest issue of the mag. That didnt stop me, I went to Watsons which is at the end of the street because I knew they sold that magazine. While walking under the heat of the sun and that was like a 5 minute walk, I was telling myself "the latest issue should be there!" and yes they did have the latest issue! I showed my hubby's work to my officemates --- wanted to make it "yabang" a bit! They all gave the same comment --- the house is really nice! Hope they weren't lying! Hehehe! :-) Because of this article Gin was able to meet with another potential client --- hopefully it will push through.

To Gin my asawa --- I am so proud of you and keep up the good work! Remember I am always here for you and that I love you so much! :-)

The rules of four

2008-04-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

I've been tagged again...but I am loving this tagging thing. Hehe! Who tagged me? It was ALMA! Thanks girl!

4 Jobs I Have Had:
Account Manager - twice
Sales Consultant
Admissions Officer

4 Movies I Watched Over and Over Again:
Titanic
Pretty Woman
Home Alone 1
Cinderella (Mary Poppins--hehe! thats five for me!)

4 Places I Have Lived:
Quezon City
Alabang

4 Shows I Watch:
One Tree Hill
Tyra Banks Show
Ellen Degeneres Show
Oprah

4 Places (Countries) I Have Been:
Hong Kong
U.S.

4 People Who Email Me:
Friends
Officemates
Boss
Husband

4 Favorite Things to Eat:
Sinigang na Baboy
California Maki
Tempura
Mangoes

4 Places I would Rather Be:
Boracay
Palawan
Europe
U.S.
Same as Alma..as long as I am with my hubby!

4 Things I Look Forward to This Year:
Buying a house --- check!
Successful pregnancy
Go to Cebu or Bohol
My promotion

To buy or not to buy? --- TO BUY!!!

2008-04-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

I posted a blog last month about buying a property or not. Gin and I were choosing between the house of my friend or a condo along Sucat Road near PATTS. After numerous discussions, we finally decided to invest our money in the condo unit. Since for now, that is all we can afford. I haven't seen it but Gin has. Hehehe! He was the one who told me about it. According to him its really nice and it will be a very good investment. We are not going to transfer there but we want to have it rented out. We've already signed the papers today and will give it plus our reservation to the agent tomorrow. Then the agent will be the one in charge to file the papers for the Pag-Ibig housing loan. Once that is approved, Gin will make the down payment and the balance will be coursed through my Pag-Ibig housing loan benefit.

Gin and I are excited and thrilled because this is going to be our first investment. This is something we can really call our own and it was one my goals for this year --- to buy a house (well its a condo now) but at least I can cross that out already. Yipee!!! :-)

Hopefully in time, we will be able to buy a house so that we don't have to keep on renting anymore. Just need to take it one step at a time, Gin and I will achieve our dreams!

No Air

2008-04-15T16:38:00.000+08:00

Do you have a favorite song? I am sure all of you do! I've got lots! But right now I am loving this song by Jordin Sparks entitled "No Air" which features Chris Brown. The first time I heard this song was when Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown did a live performance in American Idol. It was instant love for me! Hehehe!

The sound is different. It has a different tune and vibe to it.

Here is the video...hope you will enjoy it. :-)

Who is your Pinoy hero?

2008-04-10T14:54:00.000+08:00

Who is your hero from the Phils?

This was a question that was thrown at the table by our boss during lunch --- Who is your hero from the Phils (at present)? To think that this is a question that we should be able to answer in an instant but it was the opposite!

There were 6 of us having lunch and we were all deep in thought. Thinking as to who we consider as a hero (take note: at present) and this person must be from the Phils. We found it so sad because names didnt come to us in an instant. When as Filipinos we should all have at least one Pinoy hero. It was discussed that if we were asked this question a decade ago...maybe it would be a lot easier to answer. People then were fighting for a cause, the country's welfare. But now? What do our current government officials fight for or do for our country? You sometimes dont event know what their real motive is anymore.

Our boss gave us until we finish the main course to come up with our personal Pinoy hero. Finally, one by one, each of us shared who we think is a hero. Here they are:

1. The founder of Gawad Kalinga --- through this foundation a lot of lives were changed.
2. A Granfather who was part of the Philippine Army during WW II who escaped the Death March and was recruited by the Guerilla unit.
3. Another Grandfather who was put in jail during the Marcos' reign because of his fight against the Marcos government.
4. A fellow student from UPLB who stood up against the corruption of PGMA and her constituents.
5. The frist female President of the Phils --- pursued what her late husband believed in and saved the Phils from tyranny.
6. A bank official who testified against a former president during his impeachment trial.

What is the common denominator of all these people we consider as heroes? Their acts of heroism were done for the country --- for the Filipinos! To save the little integrity our country has left and to give a good or hopefully better future to our children.

Our heroes did not do these things to benefit themselves and this is what heroes should be all about.

It is not to satisfy oneself but to give oneself for another so that everyone will be saved from all the evil in this world. That for me is a hero!

20 Questions

2008-04-09T15:44:00.000+08:00

I was tagged by Sheryll. Thanks for the tag! :-)

Here are the rules: Remove one (1) question from below and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag eight (8) people in your list. Liste them out at the end of this post.

1. At what age do/did you wish to marry? 27 and yes I did get married when I was 27.

2. What color do you like most? pink and white

3. Have you ever shoplifted? NEVER

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most? Boracay

5. Which part of you that you hate the most? Being too sensitive

6. When you encounter a sad moment, what would you do? Cry

7. What are you afraid to lose the most? My family

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do? I'll donate part of it to charity, put up a foundation, share it with my family, buy a house and my dream car then put the rest in time deposit.

9. What do you loved the most last year (2007)? Celebrated my first wedding anniv.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you: I just met Sheryll and started reading her blogs today --- her son is so cute!

11. How do you cope with boredom? Surf the net or fix my stuff or our room

12. Till now, what is the moment that you regret the most? I regret that I didnt start saving money since the day I started working

13. Which type of person do you hate the most? Pretentious

14. What is your ambition? To have my own business --- either clothes or food

15. If you had one wish what would you wish for? To be blessed with our own baby.

16. How did you celebrate new year? Celebrated it at home with my hubby and parents in law

17. It is already 2008, do you have a new year’s resolution? Yes but I am having difficulty fulfilling some.

18. What do you look forward to in 2008? Hopefully to have a successful pregnancy, buying a condo as our first investment and my promotion

19. If your life is a song, what title best fit it? Bless the Broken Road (female version --- the lyrics of this song perfectly describes what I have been through)

20. What was your most embarassing moment?

My answer to Sheryll's question is --- the superpower that I want to have is to be invisble!

Now I am going to tag Jan, Gracie, Nikki, Alma, Mec and Anna. :-)

Friends

2008-04-09T10:42:00.000+08:00

"My coat and I live comfortably togther. It has assumed all my wrinkles, does not hurt me anywhere, has moulded itself on my deformities, and is complacent to all my movements, and I only feel its presence because it keeps me warm. Old coats and old friends are the same thing." -Victor Hugo

This is a quote a very good friend of mine used to describe the kind of friendship that we have. It is a given fact that a person can have lots of friends (as you could see in someones friendster, myspace or facebook accounts) but you have to agree with me that there are only a few you can really call your TRUE friends (to every letter of the word) --- which at times are very hard to find. Some may form friendships in an instant but for me those with real value are the friendships that have lasted a decaded or so. Wherein you have witnessed each others pains and joys. Despite all the flaws your friends may have, you will still love them for who they are or what they become! Friendship to me is not about quantity but the quality of frienships that you have. How come I have so much to say on what real friendship is all about? Because this is what I hold dear to my heart --- MY BEST FRIENDS!

I consider myself lucky because I have them in my life. Next to God and my family, these are the people that I cannot live without. They are all like sisters to me. A blessing indeed. People who understood me and stood by me at my best and at my worst. Through the years we've all known each other, nothing has changed --- well maybe our marital status, how we view life or do things but they are still the same people that I can run to when I am happy or sad. A treasure in my life that I will never trade for anything else!

For those who can relate to what I am saying --- arent we all lucky to have them in our lives? :-)

Losing Weight, Diet & Exercise

2008-04-02T15:25:00.000+08:00

I am sure everyone (male and female - of all ages) have tried to diet, exercise and lose weight once in their life. Because I have! Gin and I used to work out in the gym religiously. Like 3 to 5 times a week. We were addicted to it --- well at least for the whole year of our membership in Fitness First. I guess thinking on how much we paid was the motivating factor. The result was that we both lost weight, firmed up and still eating all our favorite food but in moderation. That's what everyone wants right? I loved attending the classes. My favorite was this class they call Body Jam. Its a mix of different dance steps which will really make you sweat. When our 1 year membership ended, we chose not to renew it anymore because we started to plan for our wedding already and we couldnt afford extra expenses since we were the ones who will be shouldering all the wedding expenses.

Since then, I've had difficulty finding time to exercise on my own. No motivating factor I guess? But I always had reasons not to exercise. After our wedding, Gin and I enrolled in this gym near our house. But we didnt get to use it. Either I am too lazy or just dead tired! As a result sad to say I started gaining weight and same goes with Gin. For one, we both love to eat and with no excercise its but natural to gain back all the weight we lost. There were a few attempts to do those home video excercises (Hip Hop Abs) but I wasnt able to pursue it. I was trying to find a quick fix. My sister in law that time was taking this Chinese diet pill and she really lost weight. I said to myself "why not give it a try?" So I did! Man..I hated the side effects! I was getting cold sweats, pulpitations and I'd go to the bathroom frequently. I threw the damn pills away. It was a desperate move to lose weight --- never again!

One diet secret that worked for me (not really a secret) is the after 6 and no rice. I kind of lost weight doing that. But its still different if you combine it with excercise. That is really the key! Thinking of other ways on how to lose weight, I finally found something that works which I knew all along I just didnt have the will power to do it! There is this article online thats talks about it and here it is:

Yahoo! Health

Keep It Simple, Keep It Off

Keeping is simple is the best way to not only lose weight, but keep it off, too. There are some clear-cut certainties, rules, unchanging facts and formulas regarding weight loss that really never vary. If followed, you will lose weight.

So, for just a moment let’s look only at the facts - take emotion, psychology, and personal history out of the equation, and let’s look at the simple rules of weight loss.

Just the Facts:

1. If you spend more calories than you take in, you will lose weight. Just like your bank account, if you spend more than you put in, your bank account or, in this case your body, will shrink.

2. Adding (more) exercise, and not changing your diet at all, will cause weight loss only if you are burning more calories than you are taking in (as it states in rule 1). So if you are exercising enough to push the equation over to the deficit column (where you are basically in the red with calories - spending more than you are taking in), then you will begin to lose weight.

3. Reducing your food/caloric intake and not adding exercise will result in weight loss only if you have reduced food intake enough to tip the energy balance to the negative, whereby you are taking in less than you are expending.

4. Obviously, adding exercise, and reducing your caloric intake, will make it more likely that your equation will swing over to the negative – the weight loss side. And of course, the greater the difference between intake and expenditure, the faster the weight loss (or gain, depending on which way the equation swings).

To maximize your health and weight loss benefits, add exercise and reduce food intake.

I am not belittling the difficulty of losing weight, but there is a kind of simplicity to the plain facts. Still, few of us, if any, are able to be totally objective and mathematical about weight loss.

We have managed (or our society has) to make our bodies and our weight, emotional and social and psychological subjects, making it tough to take weight off simply, and harder to keep it off. And believe me, I understand, I am no different from you.

But I do realize one thing: Whether you are agonizing over losing 2 lbs or 200 lbs, looking at weight loss as a formula can provide you with some simple, practical, and effective steps that can be taken. And just knowing that this formula is fact, and works, just looking at the black and white of it and seeing that there are absolute and realistic steps that will lead to weight loss, may help someone, maybe you, who is struggling with body issues and weight loss.

So if you can, even for a brief period of time, separate out the discomfort, frustration, personal reasoning, and self resentment from prior attempts at weight loss that have failed, you may find the objective willingness to just keep moving forward in the equation – taking out a few calories here, adding a little exercise there, and so on – until the weight starts to fall away. And it will, if you stick to the rules.

I hope this helps you stay, or get back on, your road to better fitness.

My favorite toy

2008-04-02T11:28:00.000+08:00

I spent one Sunday afternoon in my parents house and thought of searching the pile of boxes for the toys that I have collected. Luckily I found one big garbage bag that was filled with all my toys. Looking at them I couldnt help but go back in time...

While I was still at the age of 7 or 8, I clearly remember writing my eldest brother tons of letters because he was based in Chicago then. Everytime I'd write my kuya a letter, I'd always tell him about my day in school or what I have been doing. But there was this one toy that I'd always ask from him that I was really crazy about. What toy was that? It was the Cabbage Patch Kids! Everytime I'd get a reply letter from him I'd get so excited. From all the letters that I wrote him and asked for a Cabbage Patch as a gift --- either for my bday or Xmas, he was able to give me 3. One for my bday and two as Xmas gifts. Boy was I one happy kid!!! The very first Cabbage Patch he gave me was a black one wearing a little red dress, the he got me a clown and a premie. Then my collection didnt stop there, my parents got me the Cabbage Patch twins! What I loved about them is that all of them came with adoption papers and they had diapers on. So cute!!! I was the envy of every kid that went to our house.

Well being the youngest in the family, yes you can say I was sort of spoiled but it was still tolerable (i think!) My collection of Cabbage Patch Kids were always set up on my bed. I treated them like my babies. Sometimes I'd even bring ALL (yes ALL!) of them along when we go out of town. My eldest sister would get so annoyed with me because we had all these extra baggage. Hehe!

As I got older, my mom would keep on reminding me to preserve them because these are collector items. So I did! Up to this day I am proud to say that my Cabbage Patch Kids collection are still intact. Something that I might be able to pass on to my kid...if its a girl!

:-)

My trip to the doctor

2008-04-01T12:47:00.000+08:00

I went to the Immunologist my OB recommended last Saturday. Gin and I had to be up before 8am because the clinic hours of the doctor was from 8 to 10am only. Good thing her clinic was just at Asian Hospital which is near our place.

As I was getting ready, for some reason I couldnt help but be nervous. Maybe I was already anticipating on what the doctor was going to tell me. We left the house a little before 9:30 and was in the hospital in 15 minutes. I didnt have to wait long. The name of the Immunoligst is Dra. Jovilla Abong. There were a number of N@wies who have APAS that also see her. So how did it go? I informed her what happened to me and showed her my records --- she took note of it and asked me to take another series of blood tests in PGH. She wants to make sure that I dont have the other kinds of blood disorders because what I used to inject to myself is useless if I have the other disorders that I have to be tested for and she was right when she said that the tests are expensive.

When I had my APAS test done, I only paid P4k. Dra.Abong asked me to have the following tests taken:

LAT
ANA
ATA
T4 TSH
Immunophino Typing 1

I called PGH and asked how much each test would cost. True enough I am going to spend more than P10K to have these tests done. I wanted to fall off my seat when the girl I was talking to started dictating to me the prices of each. But as I mentioned in my previous blog, if at the end of it all we will be blessed with a baby then its all worth it! Again --- "Do What You Can and Let God Surprise You!"

Once I receive the test results I have to go back to Dra. Abong and that is the only time she will prescribe the meds that I have to take. Hopefully I can get all of this done before the end of this month. We're done with the first step and more to go!

Trip to the doctor

2008-03-28T11:18:00.000+08:00

It' s been almost a year since my first miscarriage but it wasn't until my second miscarriage when I found out that I had APAS which caused both miscarriages. It was on my second miscarriage when my OB told me to visit the Immunologist that he recommended. For some reason I was delaying it. Maybe because I was too afraid on what the Immunologist was going to say or I didn't want to go through the emotional stress anymore.

Finally I was able to get the strength and decided to see the Immunologist tomorrow to have myself checked before we try to get pregnant again and hubby had no second thoughts about it. But he was actually honest enough to tell me the other night that he is scared and so am I. We don't really know what to expect. All we know is that its going to be a difficult process financially, emotionally and physically (for me). Instead of focusing on that, I want to keep a positive outlook and think that if at the end of it all we will be blessed with our own bundle of joy, then all the pain and hardships will be worth it.

I just pray to God everyday that He gives us the strength and His continued guidance to surpass all the challenges and the blessing of having a normal and healthy baby. Sometimes I don't even know if its right for me to ask God for it to happen soon --- but I am just human. I hope He understands. I try to live by the title of a story Bo Sanchez published "Dont Give Up. Do What You Can. And Let God Surprise You."

Hopefully in time God will grant our wish and bless us.

Pasimban

2008-03-27T17:43:00.000+08:00

In the Kapampangan language churches are called pasimban. During the Holy Week, I did the Visita Iglesia together with my hubby and in laws in Pampanga. It was my very first time do the Visita Iglesia out of town and it was a very memorable experience for me. Not only did I get to pray and make my 7 wishes (wishes are made for people who visit a certain church for the first time) but also I was able to see the century old churches for the very first time.

I was so amazed on how they were able to preserve the interiors of the churches and by looking at the structure you will really see the difference on how lives were lived centuries ago. There were no minimalists at all! Every detail you will see in each church has a history to it and it feels good to know that our fellow Kapampangans are taking good of our heritage up to this point in time.

We visited 7 churches in the following towns:

Sta. Rita

Gua Gua

San Fernando

Lubao

Floridablanca

Bacolor

Angeles

The church that had a significant impact on me was the Bacolor Church. If you are not aware, Bacolor was one of the towns that was strongly hit by the lahar flood when the Mt. Pinatubo volcano errupted years ago. More than hald of the church was covered by lahar. So you could just imagine what was taken away from them. But the people from Bacolor really came together to revive what was left of the church. The lahar did not destroy their hopes. When you enter the church you will find a mini musuem wherein pictures of the lahar flood, old photos of the church, church artifacts and how they restored it. Depsite what happened, the church still looks beautiful and you can feel the solemness when you are inside. For me this is how all Filipinos should be --- to always come together especially if its for God.

There was one thing that I noticed though during this trip of ours. During Holy Week, there is this tradition that is usually done in provinces called "penitensya". This is where a person (male) will walk from a certain point leading all the way to the church either carrying a cross (just like how Jesus did) or making use of something like a laso made out of bamboo which these people use to hurt themselves by striking it unto themselves until they bleed which they call flagging. What I noticed this Holy Week was that all and I say ALL that were doing their penitensya were young boys. Before it was usually men aged from mid 20's above. Well the ones hitting themselves had white cloth over their heads but the reason why I could tell that they were young because they were being escorted or followed by teen agers, maybe their friends or family members. You could also tell they were young by their body structure and how they move. Makes me think, is this how our young ones pay their debts to God? Just a thought.

Anyway, all I can say is after this act of love we did for God, my hubby and I want to do it again next year --- out of town again. This is something that I hope will become our own little family tradition until we grow old and gray.

Yummy Sisig!

2008-03-26T20:25:00.001+08:00

During the Holy Week (last March 20), I went to Pampanga with hubby and my in laws to do the Visita Iglesia. Our last stop for the day was Angeles City and part of our itenerary was to eat the famous sisig of Aling Lucings. I am sure you have seen her in the commercial of one of these soy sauce brands. Unfortunately, her stall was closed. My hubby refused to find another place where we can have dinner. Good thing there was another stall that was open and this was Aling Naty's. My hubby was like "Ayun O, d'original sisig din...sure ako masarap din dyan!" He was like a pregnant mother with a bad craving and his was sisig! Hehehe!

My hubby and father in law took the lead in ordering the food. This is what we had:

Of course sisig
Dinuguan
Pork Bbq
Chicken Ass

***talk about high cholesterol!!!

The tables were set up along the street. You can see the "chefs" doing their thing.

We all had high expectations on how the food will taste and I am happy to say that Aling Naty's did not fail us! The sisig was really good. It was authentic. Nothing compared to the sisig of Dencios and the like. Even the rest of the dishes that they ordered were tastefully made. YUM YUM YUM!!!

I urge you guys to try this out!!! Take a day trip with your family and friends. I am sure you will all love it and at the same you will have fun! :-)

How do you handle it?

2008-03-19T10:51:00.000+08:00

How do you be strong for someone who is afraid to lose someone close to him?

How do you help this person gain back his strength once the person he is afraid to lose passes away?

What kind of help do you do for this person so that he can fulfill the wishes of the person he is afraid to lose?

How do you comfort a person who has this problem of letting go?

How can you stop his moment of tears?

How do you make him understand that this is the cycle of life?

What else can we do to make every minute worth while for him and the person he is afraid to lose?

So many questions in my head....

All I want is just for him to be strong and realize in the end everything will be okay!

I want him to learn that life is about what we have and what we can do at the present to journey towards a good tomorrow.

This is a first!

2008-03-18T20:27:00.000+08:00

I've had a number of "This is a first!" moments in my 30 years of existence in this planet.

Just this afternoon I had another "This is a first" moment. I was interviewed by Inquirer.net (telecon only) about this project of mine called FliptUp.com. First things first, what is FliptUp.com? It is a site for Fil-Am artists/bands and music lovers. The site aims to help these Fil-Am artists/bands promote their music and be discovered.

Anyway, when my officemate told me that the telecon was going to be done today and that I am the point person that will be asked regarding the site, I immediately got rattled. I've never been interviewed before by any news publication and to think that I will be quoted with all that I am going to say. I had to run through some questions with my officemate which she thought could be asked. Good thing she was part of the telecon so that she could back me up if I missed out on something. Phew!!! The telecon was short and it went well. Thank God!!!

All the while I thought the PR was going to be published in the newspaper but no!!! It was posted as a blog entry in Inquirer.net's blog called Soundtrip. As in 10 minutes after the telecon --- there it was!!!

To be honest (babaw as it may seem) it felt nice seeing my name in that blog entry and to think its Inquirer.net's blog. Also, this is a first step for my project to be promoted to the world. I am really proud and confident that FliptUp.com will grow as a big Fil-Am music community. Its been the vision of our team to reach out to the Pinoy community abroad and this website is one way to achieve this vision.

There are more things to come for the site and I will keep posting the latest updates here in my blog. :-)

My hubby's bday party

2008-03-17T20:15:00.000+08:00

March 15, 2008

This was an advanced birthday celebration for Gin. I started my day by waking up at 7AM and buying stuff in the wet market here in our village. Of course the food that will be prepared is Japanese (Gins favorite and mine too)! The chef and his assistants arrived in the house at 9AM and they began preparing the food for the party while I had to make sure that the tables and chairs, the decorations and the cake was taken care of. Who do you think had to do all of that? Who else but ME!!! Hehehe!

The party was held in the clubhouse of our village. As I have mentioned in my previous blog, the theme was a semi-childrens party. Instead of having games, I just prepared some art activities for the kids and the pabitin which they really enjoyed. The balloons were also a big hit. Hehehe! One by one, they were approaching me and asking "Tita Bunnie, can I get the blue/pink/red balloon?" They're so cute!!!

The food was great! We had shrimp and vegetable tempura, chicken terriyaki, sukiyaki, and different kinds of sushi, Japanese fried rice and the dilis that they usually serve as an appetizer in Japanese restos. My mom brought her famous fruit salad and the cousin of Gin brought her delicious cupcakes. I got the bday cake from Marta's Cakes --- Yummy! You might be wondering why the design of the cake are all tools used for construction --- well thats his job. He's an Interior Designer/General Contractor.

Almost everyone that I invited came and enjoyed but the most important of it all is that the birthday celebrant enjoyed!

The party ended at 3AM. It was a very tiring and busy day for me but seeing Gin smile and have fun with his family and friends makes it all worth it! :-)

Preps for my hubby's bday

2008-03-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

I am throwing a party for my hubby this Saturday. His bday is really on the 24th but since it will fall right after Holy Week, he insisted that the celebration be done in advance.

I love planning for events like this. So for his bday celebration I thought of making it a semi-childrens party. Hehehe! When I told him about it...he was like... "Babe?!?" With a question mark written all over his face. But he had no choice and at the end he was already okay with the idea. Gin has quite a number of nephews and nieces which continues to grow each month (hopefully we will have our contribution to the family tree soon!). That's why I thought of having that kind of theme. They are all of the same age and I find it so enjoyable watching them play with each other.

Its so funny...its like I am the one whose going to have a party because of my excitement. These are just my little thrills in life because I am sure Gin will enjoy and so will his family and friends.

I can't wait to post some pictures here! :-)

I've been tagged: sharing of some facts

2008-03-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

Rule: Copy the entire list and add your name on the person who tagged you. Then tag at least 5 friends (but you can tag as many as you like) and visit their blog to let them know you tagged them.

Abie - Journey to Life

Abie - MyPlanetPurple
Bela
Kaptyurd by Howell
Chat
Aggie
Apols
Apple
Thea
Jacqui
Jane
Jody
Joy
Kelly
Mich
Peachy
Pat
Leah
Farah
Vien
Nick
Tet1
Tet2

Mem
Jan
Bunnie

Here's a tag that I got from Jan which came from Farah and Vien. They call it The 8 facts about yourself.

In the 8 Facts About Yourself, you share 8 things that your readers don’t know about you. Then at the end you tag at least 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going. Here are the rules.

RULES:
* Each blogger must post these rules first.
* Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
* Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
* At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
* Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.****

My list:
1. I graduated from Assumption College and took up BSC-Mktg.
2. I am a pure blooded Assumptionista! From prep to college. (I got a loyalty award. Hehe!)
3. My favorite cuisine is Japanese --- California Maki!!!
4. I am at the parlor every two weeks.
5. I am the youngest in the family.
6. My real name is Maria Johanna. (Wondering why my nickname is Bunnie huh? :-P)
7. I love to cook and bake when I have time.
8. I love out of town trips especially going to the beach.

Whose turn is it to share 8 things about themselves? Jon, Mec and Nikki

Its so sad!

2008-03-08T16:58:00.001+08:00

I was watching the news last night and there was this report wherein a man found a fetus in a one liter Sprite bottle. The bottle was in a plastic bag. At first the man thought it was the actual softdrink that was left behind by someone because when he tried to shake the bottle, there was something inside the bottle. When he took out the bottle from the plastic bag, low and behold, there was a fetus inside --- a 6 month old fetus to be exact. I find this kind of news so depressing!!! Every time I see on TV news about aborted babies, I cant help but say "sana sa amin nalang binigay ni God" or "sana they put the baby up for adoption nalang if they cant take care of it".

So many married couples (like us) out there want to have a baby so bad while there are some that end up aborting their baby. Makes me want to ask them the question --- WHY?!? Maybe they have their reasons but whatever reason they may have, they still shouldn't resort to abortion. No one has the right! I know for some, raising a child is not easy but don't they see them as a blessing?

God did not give us permission to take one's life especially unborn babies. They have the right to be in this world. So all I have to say to these people who do these horrible acts is SHAME ON YOU!!!

Finally!

2008-03-06T08:51:00.000+08:00

Finally Gin is done with his project!!! Yey!!!

No more sleeping late for him and he can now say goodbye to all the stress he's been through for the past couple of weeks. Plus no more worrying for me too. I finally get to spend quality time with him. I am so happy!!! :-)

Reminiscing...

2008-03-04T20:31:00.000+08:00

David-Ayuyao Nuptials

December 21, 2006
St. James The Great Parish
The Palms Country Club
Color Motif: Pink and Brown

It's been over a year...Can you believe it? Sometimes I still cant believe that Gin and I are already married.

Since November last year up to this month, Gin and I have attended one wedding per month! Imagine the number of formal wear I had to either buy or borrow. Seeing our friends getting married makes me really happy because I know our friends have found their life partner. Attending all these weddings brought me back to memory lane. Hehehe! It seems as if it has been decades but I catch myself watching our wedding videos and looking at our wedding photos again. I cant help but reminisce about our wedding day!

I once told a friend whose also getting married soon while she was talking to me about her wedding preps that I want to get married again. I want to go through the process of planning again our wedding. With all the new themes and ideas that I see in magazines, the wedding preps of my friends and through the actual weddings --- the thought of getting married again --- it just excites me that I end up day dreaming! Funny huh?

As I go back to the day when Gin and I exchanged vows, I will never forget the 1 year preparation. How should I put it? Well, our weddings preps wasn't really smooth sailing. Of course Gin and I had our arguements and sometimes we wouldn't agree on things but it was all good because for me it was good stress! I was really hands on with our wedding preps and I was really proud of myself because I know Gin loved it --- every detail of it! He was so amazed with the outcome. Thanks to moi...hehehe! But I guess, every bride to be really has the most say during the preparations. Dont you think so? Well I think thats how it is.

My top 10 favorite things/moments/people during our wedding:

1. My walk - the choir sang Ikaw beautifully! It was a moment I will never forget! I couldnt stop myself from crying. Even my family and friends were crying. As my brother said, how the choir sang the song was an added factor to the emotions at that moment. Our visitors started clapping as I neared the altar...hayyy!!!

2. Saying "I do" and the "You may now kiss the bride" part - the picture says everything! :-)

3. My gown - simple yet elegant!

4. The flowers - to the bridal and entourage bouquets and the flower arrangements at the reception.

5. My surprise video for Gin - we shot this a couple of months before our wedding. The song I chose for the video was "bless the broken road" by the Rascal Flatts. The lyrics was so perfect! Our videographer added some excerpts from the ceremony to the video. Thats where I found out Gin cried while I was walking down the aisle...awwww! (to view my surprise avp for Gin, click on this link: Bunnie & Gin) Our videographer did a good job!

6. The surprise AVP of my ate - I didnt know she got my family to make a video for me. I remember during my first new years eve away from my family --- I watched that video and I was really crying like a baby! Because I missed home.

7. Our cake - this was the gift of Gins cousin to us. I just found the design online and the cake maker was able to imitate every detail. loved it and it was yummy too!

8. The feeling of being the King and Queen of the night and that you are the most beautiful girl in the room! hehehe!

9. Our wedding coordinators - I didn't have to worry about a thing.
The hoodies - I got a white with pink rhinestones hoodie for myself and of course for my female ento a brown hoodie with pink rhinestones too.

10. Last but not the least just being married to Gin --- well this should top my list!

Hope all of the wifeys out there or brides to be feel the same or will feel the same way as I do now. Finding the right partner is really a blessing and marriage is a lifetime process! So as I have mentioned in my previous blog, I really thank God everyday for Gin. He is truly a blessing to me and to my family as well!

I've been tagged

2008-03-04T08:49:00.000+08:00

I was tagged by Nikki..so here goes:

Here’s the rule: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What color do you like most? - pink and white

2. If you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one? - i love you ALL!!!

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most? - i dont really like going out that much. so i would probably have to answer just staying at home and maybe going to the parlor! hehehe!

4. Which part of you that you hate the most? - my hips!

5. When you encounter a sad moment, what would you do? - i am a very sensitive person so when i encounter something sad i end up crying and talk to gin or my friends about it.

6. What are you afraid to lose the most? - my family

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do? - share it with my family, donate some of it to a charity, buy a house and my dream car!

8. What did you love the most last year (2007)? - nothing in particular. just being with gin and enjoying the role of being a wife. we celebrated our first anniv last year.

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you. - i dont really know nikki yet but i think she is a very nice person.

10. What is your new yrs resolution? - to be more patient and understanding with gin, to buy a house and to lose weight which i doubt i can do! i love food! hehehe!

11. Till now, what is the moment that you regret the most - none

12. Which type of person do you hate the most? - people who pretend to be someone they are not, liars and back stabbing b----es!!!

13. If you had one wish what would you wish for? - to be blessed with a beautiful little angel

14. How did you celebrate new year? - in our house, spent it with my in laws.

15. It is already 2008, do you have a new year’s resolution? - huh? i think i just answered this question.

16. What do you look forward to in 2008? - getting pregnant again and buying our own home

17. What is the only thing you’ve done in 2007 that you wish won’t happen again on 2008? - its not really what i have done but what happened to me last year --- i wish i wont have another miscarriage this year.

18. Describe year 2007 in one word. - eventful.

19. What is one thing/gadget you can’t live without? - for gadget it has to be my cellphone and for thing it has to be my kikay kit

20. Now for my question: what was the best 2007 xmas gift you received? - of course gins xmas gift! :-)

sorry but i dont have people to tag but i enjoyed answering these questions! thanks nikki!

What is APAS?

2008-03-02T08:10:00.000+08:00

What is APAS? Here is a short description for those who want to know what this condition is all about:

APS and Pregnancy:

Many women with antiphospholipid antibodies do not have any problems during
pregnancy. However some women with antiphospholipid antibodies may have a
miscarriage during the first 12 weeks. This is because the antibodies inhibit
the growth of the early foetal cells.

In some pregnant women antiphospholipid antibodies can cause thrombosis in the
small and delicate blood vessels of the placenta. The placenta is then unable to
supply the foetus with enough nutrition, so the foetus may stop growing and may
die in extreme cases. Sometimes damage to the placenta prevents the foetus
growing to normal size, so the baby is small at birth. This is known as
intrauterine growth restriction.

In other cases the damaged placenta may lead to pre-eclampsia in the mother.
Pre-eclampsia during pregnancy is a potentially dangerous condition, resulting
in swelling, leaky kidneys and high blood pressure.

The best way of predicting how well a pregnancy will progress is by looking at
what has happened before. If a woman with antiphospholipid antibodies has
previously had a normal pregnancy, then it is likely that she will do so again.
One area requiring further research is to find a way of predicting whether
women with antiphospholipid syndrome who are planning their first pregnancy will
have any problems, and if so, what sort of problems are likely.

Treatment of APS:

As for other thrombophilias, treatment for APS involves giving anticoagulant
drugs to prevent the antibodies from causing further thrombosis. The three
drugs commonly used are aspirin, warfarin and low molecular weight heparin.
Aspirin is given in small doses, such as 75-100mg daily (one quarter aspirin
or 'baby aspirin'). It has long been established that aspirin thins the blood by
reducing the function of platelets. In cases of recurrent miscarriage, for
example, giving aspirin alone has dramatically improved success rates.

If someone has already had a thrombosis, then aspirin is not strong enough to
prevent a recurrence. In this case warfarin is usually given. Warfarin
(Coumadin) is an anticoagulant drug, used worldwide as a blood-thinning agent.
For example, most people with a deep vein thrombosis in the leg are given
warfarin for six months.

For those with APS, it is usually recommended that warfarin treatment is
indefinite and that the blood thinness level is kept higher than for most other
conditions. The INR (international normalised ratio) measure of blood thinness
for people with APS is kept at 3-4 when they have had a stroke or arterial
problem, whereas for patients with other thrombotic risks it tends to be kept at
2-3.

Heparin is usually given to people with APS before and after surgery and
during pregnancy. This is because its anticoagulant effects, unlike those of
warfarin, can be easily reversed. Also heparin can be used safely throughout
pregnancy, whereas warfarin can affect the developing foetus, especially if
taken during the first 12 weeks.

I Miss My Asawa!!!

2008-02-28T08:27:00.000+08:00

For the past few days Gin has been very busy with his project in ATC. The deadline to turn over the place is almost up and I think they are not quite finished with it yet. Plus the fact that he's already frustrated with his people. So he's been manning his project until the wee hours of the morning and this is not really what he's supposed to be doing because he has someone to do this for him. But he's not happy with the performance. Anyway, thats not the point that I am trying to drive at...

So what does this all mean? It means that I've been sleeping alone for the past couple of days. Well not really alone, Chase also sleeps in our room. The sad part of it is that lately he's been really sungit which I understand because of the pressure to meet his deadline. Good thing I wasnt PMS-ing on him! Hehehe! Because usually its him that I make sungit to whenever I am about to get my period. But come to think of it, it wouldn't be fair or right if I did that to him given the situation he is in now.

I just miss him so much! Do you think I am weird?

When I wake up for work that is the only time he will be getting his zzzz's. Then when I get home, he's not there because he's already in his project or I will see him for a few hours then he'll be rushing to leave. Anyway, he got home at 5:30AM this morning and he was the one who brought me to the terminal. Even Chase was so excited to see him. He kept on jumping and was seeking for his attention. Yesterday was really a bad day for him. He was complaining that his neck was hurting already because of the stress. (Wawa naman my Gin Gin!) Though without me saying anything, he told me while I was eating breakfast this morning "I'll make it up to you babe!" Just by hearing that put a smile in my face because he still thought of that despite all the chaos with his work. :-)

Hopefully by this weekend everything will be done already.

Different Strokes for Different Folks...

2008-02-26T12:32:00.000+08:00

Every married couple has their own share of marital problems. I find it impossible to believe for a couple not to have one...may it be big or small. Whenever I get to talk to wives or husbands alone that share their frustrations in their marriage and compare it to mine, I cant help but be thankful for what Gin and I have. Dont get me wrong here! Our marriage is not perfect...

We too have our own "issues". I too have my nagging moments and complaining moments with Gin. But somehow despite everything, I can say I am blessed with a husband that I know who loves me dearly and who respects me for what I am. I thank God everyday for blessing me with Gin and for what we have. I guess all these trials that we go through, is a process that will make our marriage even stronger. To fight all the battles that will come our way together.

No one really said that marriage will be a bed of roses. Actually this is where you will discover new things about your husband - the positive and the negative. Funny huh? When all the while you thought you knew your husband so well already. It works both ways I guess.

Marriage is a lifetime process...a commitment that you and your husband must face together. I pray for all those couples that struggle with their marital problems everyday. May God enlighten them. May they be strong and know what is right from wrong and overcome all thay they are going through together.

To buy or not to buy? That is the question...

2008-02-22T12:51:00.000+08:00

Aside from the dream of having our own baby. My husband and I also dream of buying our own house. I guess thats every couples dream unless you were already given a house to live in by your parents. If you are one of those couples, consider yourself very lucky!!!

After our wedding, I moved in to my husbands house that they are just renting out. We've been married for more than a year now and its been a long time plan to buy our own home. Until a friend of mine informed me a couple of months ago that her parents are selling their house because they are moving in to another place. I told Gin about it and told him to take a look at their house (even from outside). He loved it! It is a nice house and it is very well maintained. The price is also reasonable. It will be a good buy if ever things push through. We were thinking of the different options as to where we can loan. There was the bank financing or the PAG-IBIG housing loan. I told my husband, I can avail of the PAG-IBIG housing loan since that is my benefit and the monthly payment can be deducted from my salary.

My parents would always tell me, while were still young, we should grab the chance of being able to loan and invest on something. Until lately, hubby and I became pretty serious already of buying our own house. So I attended the seminar in PAG-IBIG for the housing loan last Wednesday. Its the very first step you should take before you can actually apply for a loan. My hubby on the other hand spoke to his bank and asked about their housing loan. Unfortunately, when you loan from PAG-IBIG you cant loan from them anymore. Sigh! Well, we thought it was possible to do that simultaneously.

Another option my husband brought to the table, is to buy a condo unit in this newly developed condo bldg along Sucat, Parañaque near PATTS. I automatically disregarded the idea and said "NO! I want to buy a house!!!". But after doing some thinking --- I said to myself "why dont we just buy both?!" Not a bad plan huh? Hahahaha!!! Seems like we have lots of money huh? NOT!!! Well hubby was very game with the idea. I can make use of my PAG-IBIG loan to buy the condo and he can make use of the bank loan to buy the house or vise versa. Hopefully these plans will turn into something real. Wish us luck!!!

Our dog --- Chase

2008-02-19T20:42:00.000+08:00

Chase is a male Wired Hair Dachschund. At present he is 9 months old. We got him by accident. Chase was given to my nephew by his good friend from school. He wanted a dog badly but he couldn't handle Chase. So the few times I would visit my parents house, I would play with Chase and tease my nephew that we will take care of him instead. Until one Sunday he finally gave in. We finally have a dog. Chase was still 3 months old when we adopted him from my nephew.

This dog is very spoiled. To every letter of the word! He's like our baby or should I say he is our baby! Hehe! Why is he spoiled? Let me count the ways:

1. He sleeps in our room and take note on our bed.
2. He doesn't sleep in our room if the AC is not turned on.
3. He gets his favorite treats regularly (Pedigree tooth sticks and the bones from Nilaga)
4. He likes being fed and he likes being accompanied by me or our helper whenever its time to eat.
5. He cannot play outside the house (this is my rule - so that he wont get dirty). But we make him pasyal once in a while.

These are only some of the things I can think of that makes him a spoiled dog. But having a dog as a pet, is also like having your own child. When he's sick my husband and I really get worried. We miss him when were out. Taking him to the vet regularly for his shots. I make sure that he's fed on time. ---> Doesnt this all sound like we have our own child? Hehe! My husband was asking me, "what if we already have our own baby? Chase cant sleep in our room anymore!" I said, the baby and I will sleep in the baby's room and you will sleep with chase in our room. Does it make sense? Hehe!

Chase's bday is coming up - May 21. He'll be turning a year old. We plan to do a small celebration. Weird or funny as it may seem, but Chase has made our days more enjoyable. He's already part of our family! Even my parents love him.

Dont Give Up. Do What You Can. And Let God Surprise You.

2008-02-19T08:49:00.000+08:00

I recently joined an online community of newly weds and women who are trying to conceive. One of the members shared a blog entry from Bo Sanchez which is very inspiring and touching at the same time. (On the side note, I love reading his inspirational stories or messages. In one way or another it touches my life or someone that I know)

There are some couples out there that waited for years to have their own baby. With countless prayers and medical treatments, at the end of it all, its still God who will determine when it is time. We just have to contine trusting Him and never give up.

The main message of the Bo Sanchez blog entry is the title of my blog entry: "DONT GIVE UP. DO WHAT YOU CAN. AND LET GOD SURPRISE YOU."

Here is a link to the blog entry: http://bosanchez.ph/receive-the-best-miracle-for-your-life/

Last night I was going through the archive of messages on APAS and read a good number of stories from fellow members of the group I joined. Somehow, it uplifted my spirit because they were mostly success stories. I told Gin about these stories I read and I saw hope in his eyes. We agreed that we should already go to the Immunologist my OB referred to us. Its a given fact that treatments for APAS will really cost a lot of money but if the end result will be our own bundle of joy, then its all worth it!

We plan to visit the Immunologist by next month. Gin and I just pray to God, that He will guide us every step of the way and help us get through all the challenges. That's why after reading the blog entry of Bo Sanchez --- I know nothing is impossible with God!

blogging

2008-02-16T15:18:00.000+08:00

I was researching online about this condition that i have --- APAS (Antiphospholipid Antibody Syndrome) when I stumbled upon several blogs of women who either are also trying to conceive or have the same condition as mine. It was a good feeling for me knowing that I am not alone on this struggle my husband and I are going through. Because of this, it made me decide to create my own blog too (though I am not really good at it) but maybe this is one way to get others to share their stories with me and maybe in someway help those who are also going through pregnancy losses.

Here is my story...

My husband and I got married last December 21, 2006. At first, having kids wasn't part of our plan. We wanted to give it another year before we try making a baby. But somehow seeing our friends and relatives with their little angels made us change our minds. Three months into our marriage, I found out I was pregnant. What joy did it bring to me and my husband. A week after taking the pregnancy test, we visited my OB. Everything was okay. I took the usual vitamins and went for another check up. It was on my third check up, when my OB discovered that something was wrong. I was going on my third month and there was no heartbeat. My OB already informed us about APAS but he didn't want to confirm that I had it yet. So we tried to save the baby by injecting me with heparin and I had to take Aspilet. On my next check up, there was no baby to save anymore. The baby didn't grow and still there was no heartbeat. I was scheduled for my first DNC last April 2007. The OB said it was a blighted ovum and we should try again after 6 months. It was heartbreaking for me --- because I was so excited. I kept on crying and just felt miserable. But I had to move on. After 6 months, my husband and I tried again and guess what? I got pregnant again! We visited my OB right away and he advised me to get myself tested for APAS. I went to PGH and had my blood test. After 3 days I got the test results and showed it to my OB. The results showed that I was positive --- I have APAS!!! :-( The sad part of it all was, the day I found out I had APAS was also the day I had my second check up and found out (again) the baby was gone. My OB didn't want to be agressive so he advised me to get daily injections of heparin and to take aspirin for at least a week. Then again, it was too late to save the baby. I was scheduled for my second DNC last October 2007. This time I just wanted to give up! I felt I was being punished by God. I had a lot of quetions for him. The typical questions like: Why is this happening? What are you trying to tell me? Why me? What is your purpose for all this? But during the period of my sadness, there was one thing I realized and I should be thankful --- I realized that there are a lot of people of who really love me. Like my husband, my family and in laws, and my set of friends whom I've known for years. They helped me get through this struggle which rekindled my faith in God and just made strong again.

After my last DNC, I haven't visited my OB again or even consulted an Immunologist. Why so? To be honest I am scared. I am scared of what they will say and I am scared because we might not be able to afford it.

Right now, I am keeping my faith strong and just taking it one day at a time. Also, I am trying to look for other people who have the same condition as mine. That's why I stumbled upon those blogs. I don't know what to do actually. I know consulting an Immunologist and getting myself tested will cost a lot of money. My husband and I want to try again...but the fear of losing our baby again is over powering me. Hopefully, I will be able to find some answers or help from others.

This blog is just a start of the many blogs I will be posting about our journey --- our journey of trying to conceive!